Unchanged

I want to go to a place that's unchanged by time and date.
I want to escape to the rush of it all, and just go
To the place unchanged by time and date.

I want to find this place, that's unchanged by time and date
Where everything is the same, everything has remained
In the place unchanged by time and date.

Young children laughing and playing,
Elderly people smiling and reminiscing
In this place unchanged by time and date.

Everything is still, like a picture
Everyone is frozen in time
In this place unchanged by time and date.

The weather's always perfect
The sun is out, not a raincloud in the sky
In this place unchanged by time and date.

There's this fantasy world, you see,
That I have created to help me escape from me.
In this place unchanged by time and date.

Irrational Fear

It's just a fear.
I don't want him to go anymore. Spending those long hours on the bus with some pretty colorguard girl, getting closer, getting to know her. And I won't be anything to you then. And that's what I'm afraid of. I'm afraid of losing you. I don't want to lose you to someone else, I don't want you to go on tour, I want you with me, here.
It's just an irrational fear. Please, reassure me nothing will change between us. I'll always love you, but after your tour will you always love me?

Movie fact about me

Another thing about me:

I cannot watch a part of a movie I haven't seen before. I have to watch it from beginning to the end. If it's a movie I've already saw, I'm okay with jumping in the middle, but I prefer not to.

Merp

I wonder. I hope things don't change between us. I'll always remember the day.

May 26, 2012.

I finally got to know what you were going to tell me. I don't know why you waited or anything. Why you waited til I was off my period is beyond me. But hey. Thanks. <3

Inspiration

I think we all need some inspiration. Today, is Inspiration Day. Spamming of inspirational quotes will now commence.

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Sometimes.

“It’s when I’m standing six feet away from you and not being able to find the words to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you that I want to just scream to the whole room that I’m still in love with you. It’s when I’m sitting alone with the phone in my hand dialing your number and hanging up that I would trade a thousand tomorrows for just one yesterday. Then I could just call you to tell you goodnight. It’s when I am really sad about something and need someone to talk to that I realize you’re the only one who really knew me at all. It’s when I cry myself to sleep at night and it hits me how much I would give to hold you at that very moment. It’s when I think about you that I realize no one else in the world is meant for me.”

Sometimes...
I feel like that.
I just need to say, this really quick. I'M TRYING, okay? Give me some credit here, you'll be fine. But you don't see that I'm trying, you don't see that I'm here for you. So what am I then? I don't even know myself.

Farewell

There comes a time in your life where you throw up your arms and say, "Fuck this. I don't care anymore." I believe I've reached that point. Look, I can't always be the good guy. I can't always be the good girl, the nice one, the one who cares and babies everyonr. How about this? Stop giving me titles, stop giving me names an accept the fact that I'm not always the good nice guy.

I realized my life is just full of liars, complainers, people who use other people for their advantages. Yeah. I'll admit to being a liar, to complaining and using others. I'm not going to pretend to be something I'm not. I'm not perfect, and I don't try to be. What you see is what you get, stop trying to make me something I'm not.

Essentially, I'm tired of society and all the stupid rules that come with it. I'm tired of talking, I'm tired of writing, and essentially I'm tired of speaking my mind when no one is listening. I'm tired of pretty much everything. Mostly, I'm tired of people knowing my thoughts and how I feel and then using them against me somehow, someway. So, this is the end folks. I'm shutting down this blog. There will not be anymore postings. Or the postings will be rare.

If you ever want to know what's going on...don't worry. It's none of your concern anymore. It's all mine, and it's all in my head now.

Goodbye. We had a nice run together.

Appreciation!

IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BE APPRECIATED. <3