Blah.

Not to be a selfish bitch, but do you know what it feels like to have something so simple taken away from you? Like...to have your whole downstairs feel like...it's not even home
To you? Yeah. That's exactly What it feels like. That your own home doesn't even belong to you anymore.

And I hate this feeling. But that's what it feels like, it feels like losing a part of your home.

No offense or anything, but I don't think she's strong enough for my brother. She's dependent, she can't really deal with things herself, and it seems to me my brother is always comforting her. I don't see anything reciprocate. Maybe I'm wrong, but this is just my observations. I know I'm just judging from first apperances, but I'm not a big fan.

Oh well, whatever. Like my mom said I have to get over it. My parents are amazing.

WISHLIST.

Updated 8/6/2012 10:00AM
Got item 1. :O
1. Babee Pullover
Limited Edition.
$30.00

Raglan pullover top. Super comfy
loose fitted, medium-weight sweater.

Color: Heather Grey

60/40 super soft poly/cotton blend

Quantities are Limited.

More to come, if I'm feeling selfish. Haha.

Childhood in a nutshell.

I got this off of Facebook. This is seriously my childhood. I remember all of this shit. Hahaha, man, I'm old. D:

If you're under the age of 17 you shouldn't even read this; and if you do, you should not repost.

Just because you were born in 1996 doesn't mean you're a 90's kid. ... It's not like you could remember the original Simpsons - I am sorry but four years of the 90's just wont cut it.

You're a 90s kid if, you remember watching...
-Kenan and Kel
-Doug
-Pinky and the Brain
-AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!
-Rocko's Modern Life
-Animaniacs
-Courage the Cowardly Dog
-Hey Arnold
-Clarissa Explains it All
-The Simpsons
-The Fresh Prince of Bel air
-Nickelodeon Slime Time
-Family Feud

You've ever ended a sentence with the word PSYCHE!
You just cant resist finishing this: "In west Philadelphia born and raised...

You remember:
-Step by Step
-Family Matters
-Dinosaurs
-Boy Meets World

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.

When everything was settled by:

-rock paper scissors or
-bubble gum bubble gum in a dish

When kickball was something you did everyday!! and you played on the monkey bars and knew at least one kid who broke their arm falling off of it...
You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape.
You remember when Super Nintendo became popular.
You always wanted to send in a tape to Americas Funniest Home Videos . . . but never taped anything funny.

You remember watching:
-The Magic School Bus
-Wishbone
-Reading Rainbow
-Ghostwriter on PBS

You remember when Yo-Yos were cool.
And you played with Gak, Silly Putty and Sticky Tack that you stole from the teachers walls.
You remember eating Warheads and Smarties

You remember watching:
-The 1st Batman
-Aladdin
-Ninja Turtles
-Ghost Busters
-X-Men

You remember Ring Pops!!!
If you remember when every thing was "da BOMB!"
You remember boom boxes vs. CD players
You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere u went

You watched the original cartoons of
-Rugrats
-Wild Thornberrys
-Power Rangers (with the Green ranger)
-Rocket Power
-Transformers

All your school supplies were Lisa Frank or Five Star brand

If you collected:
-Beanie Babies
-Pokemon cards (the oringinal 150)
-Coins with the states on them
-Carebears
-Silver dollars, which were cool to have

Everyone watched the WB
If you even know what an original Walkman is..

You know the Macarena by heart
"Talk to the hand". . .enough said.
You went to McDonald's to play in the play place
Before the MySpace/Facebook/Twitter frenzy...
Before the Internet & text messaging...
Before Sidekicks & iPods ...
Before PlayStation3 or X-BOX 360...
Before Spongebob...
When light up sneakers were cool and you had spiral spring shoelaces
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs
When gas was $1.
When we recorded stuff on VCR
You had slap bracelets!
You actually played outside until it was dark!

Way back-before we realized all this would eventually disappear...
ONLY REPOST IF YOU SMILED AT AT LEAST HALF OF THESE THINGS BECAUSE THEY BROUGHT BACK MEMORIES.

Worst day

Today was one of the worst days of my life. I got into a car accident, and it was my fault. My fault.

Stayed up late, woke up late.
Stayed up til 3AM, but I didn't respond to that text message yousent becaue I didn't want you to know I was awake, since you'd get mad. Briefly opened my eyes around 10-11AM. I was going to text you but I was afriad you would've already been on the plane. So I went back to sleep and woke up at 2PM. Teehee.
Today, I plan to read some more, and work on a few projects. Tomorrow, Mission Peak, and hanging out with Brian, if I don't fall asleep, haha. Then..I don't know. I needa make more plans with people I guess. :O
Until then, I shall miss you, and I will text you every day! <3

Airplanes

I couldn't sleep a few nights ago.
When I finally drifted off to sleep, I had a strange dream.
I was with a group of people my age. They were either classmates, band friends, or people I know from somewhere or met from someplace. We were going on a trip to somewhere towards the East. We had to take two planes, one was a stop-over flight. We boarded the first airplane, with no problems. We got to the second airport, and I remembered being in a large hanger that had no roof. Somehow, the airplane we were boarding ran out of space inside the plane, so a couple of my...mates and I decided to ride on TOP of the airplane. I remember I was sitting on top of the nose, and a female friend of mine was sitting behind me somewhere. I had the box of colored pencils with me, and I had paper too. I think I was drawing somethingfor someone, but I can't remember. The airplane took off, and I kept my balance on the plane, but then I was the first person to fall off the plane. The colored pencils fell first, then I did, then my friend. We had a soft and lucky landing becaue we weren't too far off the ground. The airplane flew off without us. Then there were Jeeps heading towards us filled with band parents. Next thing we know, we were being herded somewhere else. And that's all I remember.

The Shop is Closed.

If I could write about how I feel right now, it'll probably take a few books. I wish there was someone I could talk to about this. Ryan (either of them), Christian (but I'm sure he doesn't want to hear any of it), Steven (I'm sure he's tired of hearing it), Viet (I don't want to rain on his good moods) Brian...but I'm tired of disappointing him.

I just want someone to listen to me, reassure me. But that's life.
God. The only thing I can thing of right now is the last day of school. Andrew was there for me. While I cried so hard, the hardest sobs I had ever cried. I wish...I wish I could talk to him again. I know he has problems, but..he's always been there for me, and I was never there for him. Maybe I picked Andrew because I knew he'd understand why I was crying so hard, why it meant SO much to me...

I don't know anymore. I just wish this twisted dance will end.

Well well well.
Certain things have come and gone, and certain things have arrived.
Let briefly tell you all about my Europe trip.

Europe was...different. I liked London for the Harry Potter museum (and for other things), I liked Paris for it's elegance, I loved Switzerland the most, and Italy had amazing food.
The people on our tour were pretty awesome. Even though they were mostly Asian (Chinese), I'm sad that I didn't get to know them better, sooner. We met an amazing family with the last name Chao. They're pretty awesome, they have a daughter, Isabel, and a son, Ethan. Ethan is so random, but he's great. He's starting freshman year this year. Isabel is starting either 7th or 8th grade.We'll hang out with them soon, after they get back from Spain and stuff.

We also met another family with the last name of Hurlow (they're Cantonese). Okay, I'll be honest. Everytime I go onto a trip I always have to...find an interest in one of the guys on our trip. Back in 2009 (China trip) I had an interest for Brian, the guy closest to my age from the other family. This time though, I had an eye for Andrew. I don't know why, but he's pretty interesting to me. Maybe it was because at that one dinner I seemed to notice him for the first time, or maybe it was because he was watching me. I'm not sure. But I had a fascination with him anyways.

Now I'm going to put some random note here at the bottom that'll be pretty damn cryptic.
7/22/2012 or was it the 21st...anyways.
"Stop worrying about her stabbing you."
"Okay I won't."
"Because I won't let it happen."
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"There are a lot of Jlam look-a-likes here."
"Is that a problem?"
"No. It isn't."
"I know, more eye-candy for you, right?"
"It's not a problem because I have you."

Do you ever wonder...
How did this happen?