It sounds weird, I know, but I miss the summer. The summer where I waited for you to come back home because I missed you. Every day felt like months, sometimes years, and not hearing back from you made me think that you didn't care. I now know that you did, and I don't know. I tried in my own way to make you remember me, to not forget me. Every time I saw you or got to be with you was an amazing moment, I was so happy. I got to see and be with you, no matter how brief, I cherished every moment. I'm sorry I just never told you that.
When you were out there with your corp, the look on your face after a performance, how you glow when you talk about the corp, everything, the passion you have when you were with them, on or off the field. I'm envious of it, but I also miss the way you glow, the way you carried yourself whenever you were with them. I miss the affect they had on you, I miss the way you...I don't know. For me, it feels like...you were happier with them, happier than I can ever provide. I'm not sad or anything, I'm just glad that I could see you so happy, so passionate about something. I'm proud that you are with them, I'm proud that you...actually cared for something as much as you did when you were with the corp. I look at myself, I see that I am nothing compared to the corp. I'm not sad, or mad, I'm just stating the facts as I see it. I will always be here for you, whenever you need me. I'm not your world, the corp is your world. It has always been your world since you've known it.
Now I see that school has started. I know you listen to them on Youtube. I know you miss them.
I miss you being with them. It hurts me because you aren't with them, and it hurts me that I will never get to experience what you got to experience. I won't get to experience it. I'll leave it to you to go back to, because...it brings the best out in you. It proves to everyone that you can do whatever you put your mind to. You serve as an inspiration to all who know you. You're intelligent, determined, strong, and you care. If I had half, or even a quarter of your talent, I'd be amazing. But the fact is I don't have half of your talent, I have way less than that. You'll get far in life, where ever or whatever you dare to pursue. I love you, and I love what you do. It's admirable hard work that you do.
I can't do what you do. I couldn't stand it, I couldn't be part of it. You see, I was never passionate enough for what you do. I never had half of or even a quarter of your talent.
But you do. You have all the talent and willpower necessary to be in the corp.
And every time you think about it, every time you talk about it, just know that you're doing something that's meaningful to you, and inspirational to everyone else.
So don't give up. Keep working on what you're doing, because I know you'll be great. I just ask that you won't forget me when you become famous, and always remember all those who helped you along the way.
I love you. <3
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