Help

Is today national Piss Off Kelly day? Because you people seem to be really good at it. 

First Megan, for trying to force me to play League, then Johnny for his views about Johnathan. 

It's like you guys don't fucking understand. I'm over him. I let him do what he wants to do. He knows better. I'm not his mom or his GF or anything. And the "best" part about everything is that no one fucking understands what's going on right now. 

My "best friend" is so obsessed with his girlfriend that he doesn't spare a thought for me. He doesn't even realize that I'm in deep waters, and I'm near drowning. He doesn't even put in the effort to talk to me, he only talks to me when he needs something. I'm always texting him first and trying to be positive. All I want to do is cry right now because NO ONE CAN HEAR ME SCREAM. No one at all. 

My decisions aren't respected. My judgement is not to be trusted. I'm a wreck. I just need someone to help me pick up the pieces. I would like someone to just be understanding and NOT irritate me. I just want help; I need help. I just need someone to listen to me rant, and vent. 

Please help. I'm scared.