List of ex-crushes

So, I've been looking for this one blog post that I did for about half an hour to an hour. I finally found it, and I will currently be updating this.

Originally posted on July 24th, 2011 and updated July 14th, 2015

Okay, so there's this ONE THING that bothers me the MOST.

Ever since I've been in high school, the guys I've liked have ALWAYS liked/gone after my friends. It hurts me so much. It hurts when the guy I like tells me about the girl he likes (who's my friend or relative). It really makes you feel like you're not good enough for them. You feel so horrible and you think there's no one out there. Here's a list of the guys I like(d) and my friends that they like(d). Also included would be guys who liked other girls that I knew of. Wow, when I phrase it that way I sound possessive. Keep in mind some of my friends didn't do anything. Anyways, onto the list.
 

Middle school
Boy (I liked)              Girl (my friend or relative)
7th grade
Andy                           Andie

8th grade
Viet                            Elizabeth

High school
Freshman year:

Swan                          Karen 

Alden                         Amanda

Sophmore Year:
JP                              Erin

Junior Year:

Ryan                          Rory
Brent                          He flirted with my friends...

Johnathan                   Katie

Senior Year:
Johnathan                    Jamie

College
1st year
Johnathan                    Started seeing/dating Sharon
Raymond S.                 Didn't like anyone at the time, started dating my housemate a year later

Raf                              Bonnie

2nd year
Stanley                        Megan

3rd year
Brian K.                       Joyce
Raymond L.                  Britt

That's just the list SO FAR, I'm sure I will be adding more later on during the year.

Just my luck, huh? It always seems to be me that has this...I can't stop it, and I will never be able to.