Stop saying sorry + more regrets

Every time someone says, "I'm sorry for your loss" I want to get so mad. All the sorries in the world will never bring her back. 

I'm emotionally exhausted. 

I want to skip to the "getting better" phase. But the getting better phase is only after I've been hurt so badly.

I can't imagine what you went through, Nat. 

You'll always be Nat the Cat to me. Nat who loved tea and cats. Who loved board games and strategy games. Who loved building worlds and playing City Skylines. Who was as gay as can be and proud of her gayness. Who loved memes and games and visual graphic novels (especially if there were lesbian things happening). 

...

I don't know anymore. Every day I message you. I know I'll never get  response back, and I know one day I'll stop messaging you. I wish I had Skyped or Google+'d you more, or played more games with you. 

I love you. I'll always give you validation, because to me, you are valid.