I just didn't want to be alone today. But I was. I just wanted you and I to watch movies and be chill. But that didn't happen. 

Now here I am. Laying in bed listening to music because I was too lazy to get up and turn off Youtube's auto playlist. 

I'd like you to know how disappointed I am. But it really wouldn't matter. I'm not sure why I'm even surprised this turned out the same, like all the other times. 

Since I've gotten home, I've just been hoping. What a mistake. I should stop having hopes and letting them get so high. It would soften the mounting disappointment I feel. I just wanted your company.