Lost thoughts

Oh please. I wish it would end. I'm so tired of holding on to a shred of hope. I know nothing will happen, but something deep down inside thinks something will happen. Give it up. Stop wasting your time. 

Amanda was probably right. 

I should stop wasting my time. I don't want to end up in that place I was in years ago. I got better, but that was a dark place, indeed. 

I'm stuck between hating myself and hating myself. I can't find middle ground, I can't even put my feelings into words. 

I'm so unsure, I'm so confused, I'm so lost. 

Goodnight.